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Saturday: Went ta tha dells with tha black family that raised me...went on a rollor coster fo tha first time n almost died

Sunday: legs was dieing from all tha walking from tha water park and i took my mans twin 2 year old daughters ta tha zoo wit him ..gotta love bay bay kids

Monday: got in a fight with my neighbors boyfriend cuz he jus a plan ass hole n i really wouldn't mind if he jus like stoped living

Tuesday: was my moms birthday and we basically didn't do shit cuz she didn't wanna do nothing so i jus made her a big ass birthday sign for her to wake up to

Today: My man urked tha shit out me cuz i asked him if he wanted ta kick it and he was like yea what u wanna do and im like i dont care i jus wanna see u and hes like well think of something and im like i aint got any money right now and he like u dont need money ta kick it and he like call up one of your friends and see whats good with them and im like i dont have any friends and he like yea you do and im like no i dont and he like whateva and im like shit will u shut ur ass up and find something fo us ta do and he like call me back when you think of something n im like whateva cuz i dont got nothin n then i hung up on him and then played ball with my ma n brother and beat they ass like always and then he called me and was like did you think of anything yet and im like naw i already told you i got nothin find something fo us ta do and he like call one of ur friends and im like man will u jus shut ur ass up i already told you i dont have any friends cuz i dont get along with females and he like stop lieing i no u have friends and im like u really urkin me n shit and he like u startin ta make me mad and im like whateva and then he like bye n im like click and i went back n played ball n then i went inside and worked on tha outfit im makin fo my lil trip ta see my sister and then he called me n we finna watch a movie tomorrow sooooooo he says n shit cuz i neva get my hopes up with men cuz shit aint finna let no man bring me down n shit sooooooo i guess we will see and we sat on tha phone fo like 2 hours talkin n basically bitchin cuz he dont like it when i ask questions about anythang even stupid shit soooo we got going at it again n shit n now im watchin family matters till i fall asleep

I don't know what to do about my boyfriend. He calls me Mexican and makes jokes about how I�speak. Sometimes when I�am around him�I stutter and I�don't stutter around anybody else just him. What can I do when he calls me Mexican? I�am Puertorican and he knows it bothers me. He says it does it to show that he loves me and that he cares for me. But I�don't know. Any advice?

The injury we do and the one we suffer are not weighed in the same scale....

I believe the one we suffer is far more worse than what we do in any situation. They can not be measured in the same scale,� not even close to it at all.

Hey Diary,

Okay, I know over the past number of entries I always say this... but time really passes so fast. 2 weeks has gone by since I picked up my report card.=P�AND. yes i'm bored.. but i guess this is the perfect timing to bring�stuff back into life.

Like?

Anime. I gotta catch up. + i gotta buy more dvds to burn them on!�I stopped watching way back in ... December. ?? i dunno but i'm getting on it.

SCRAPBOOKING. I remember keeping all these pictures of my mom when she was young to make a page or 2 for her birthday. I guess i kinda forgot about that since .. last year. Until i started to clean under my bed. Then i realized i've been missing out.

No wonder i feel so lonely right now. I used to do everything by myself. Now that i start to realize i barely spend time outside...and it's starting to kill me.

Now.

ehh . nothing else to type soo

love

blahbee =)

i miss my daddy so much today he is working late super late. god knows i cant stop thinking of him.. i never though it is possible to love someone this much

My boyfriend says I�need to grow up but I don't know how. It is kind of hard for me since I am in college and I am only 22. He has a two year old daughter named Lily.� He wants me to be step mommy in the future and like change her diapers every once in a while. It is like I�am a wife but still in college and we are not married. I�don't even live with him but I�help clean up his house sometimes and we go grocery shopping together. Am I�growing up too fast? Will I�still be able to go out and have fun like a normal 22 year old? I�don't want to lose him though. I love him so much but can I�handle Lily?! Any advice.

BM:

#1 630 (both days)

throughout the day every 3-5 hours.

#2 getting back to normal yesterday only 1 time at 5pm loose and firm stool

EYES:� Sunday I notice small blisters starting in both eyes, have been using terramycin 3x per day already better but lots of discharge in the goodeye yesterday and very opaque. vision poor the last couple of days.

ENERGY: good really begging for more food. gave rice yesterday to help firm up stool.

MOBILITY:� not as stiff but weak, back legs collasping in the house she stops every couple of feet due to mobility and vision not sure where she is at.

HEARING:� good

APPETITE:� hearty as usual. tolerating supplements.

OTHER:� burns healing but large scab came off yesterday and it was a bit bloody;( still ousing but getting smaller. does not looked inflammed.

as far as supplements has been less than a week but a couple of weeks now with the GDP and no results with the mobility. was hoping that the GDP wouls have started working by now. Josh says it will take more time.